The last film I actually paid to see was Fahrenheit 911. I don't even know who all those famous people are anymore. Too many of them anyway!

I should confess that I'm an agnostic. My mind is open to any and all possibilities, except, of course, religious extremism of any kind (Christian, Jewish, Muslim, Hindu, Atheist, etc.). Of all the choices, Buddhism/Taoism are the most appealing to me. I heard a psychic comment once about how this earthly life is actually the karmic equivalent of Hell, and that any place else our souls go is an improvement over this existence. Heaven forbid is, as you know, just an expression. I could have said God forbid but I'm not at all sure God exists. She probably doesn't. The idea of living in some angelic place forever is almost as frightening as living in a demonic place forever. I greatly dislike the idea of eternity.

But I guess you're just naturally hostile. No wonder you have few friends! I will freely admit that I'm a highly emotional person, although to an outsider I appear very self-controlled. I tried antidepressants a few times in my life. Either they did nothing (except give me very vivid dreams, which was sort of fun) or, in the last instance that I talked about, they grayed me out, which was boring. I finally concluded that I'd much rather feel, even if some of the feelings are negative and uncomfortable, than be stuck in neutral. As for Asperger's, I'm an Aspie, and I'm a bit surprised that you're getting your information about Asperger's on somebody's blog instead of reading more technical information about it, since one of your favorite rants is my not citing enough scientific studies about veganism. If you had done your research, you would know that Aspies range from average intelligence to highly intelligent. And there are different "flavors" of Asperger's, e.g., the more emotional Aspies and the "Mr. Spock" types. All flavors have to work harder than your average "normal" to figure out social cues and body language because that doesn't come naturally, but they can be socially active, as you are or at least claim to be. So don't dismiss it out of hand. Having said that, I should mention that that I don't like the idea of making Asperger's into a syndrome or disorder. I believe it's just a natural variant of human behavior and there's a place for us Aspies in the world, even if we're natural misfits in relation to the rest of society. I wrote a couple of articles on Asperger' on another write website, but I'm not a link junkie or much of a self-promoter so I won't give you the links. And no, sweetie, I don't need to gain weight. Heaven forbid! Actually I've been trying to dump about 5 kilos for decades, although I would definitely not qualify as obese. I'm living proof that vegans are not all skinny minnies. ;) Good luck with your personality issues. Perhaps you just pre-planned an uneventful incarnation with a fill-in soul and the next life will be more exciting for you. One can only hope! BTW, I was involved peripherally in the medical field for many years (not like resident xomba expert dentist rawnak), and when I was even younger than you I was a major hypochondriac. My interest in it comes quite naturally.

You sound just like I felt on antidepressants when I tried them briefly a number of years ago. Life became blah and I couldn't laugh or cry anymore. My emotions were frozen. I felt like a zombie (as opposed to xombie). A possibility is asperger's, aka autism lite.